So I’m furiously jealous of this girl one of my best friends is hanging out with. I’ve only met this girl once before and I found her to be so incredibly annoying and clingy and I just don’t like her face. That’s not to say they can’t be friends or anything, I just don’t want to share the bond we have with anyone else. I hate going on Facebook to see my friend post shit about her being the most incredible and beautiful person and automatically I want to cut this bitch. She’s probably really nice  and funny and I’ll end up liking her if I get to know her. But I don’t want to. I don’t give a shit.

I hate how they both speak Japanese and I can’t, which not only makes me feel left out, but stupid as well even though I freaking took German honors. My friend is moving to Japan for college and I’m truthfully so happy for her. I’ve always believed in her beauty and intelligence and how much she deserves this opportunity.

This being said, I admit that I feel like I’m losing her. I can’t tell her anything of this because she’ll say I’m overreacting or just wrong because she doesn’t see things from other’s point of view sometimes. The point is, I HATE THIS OTHER GIRL AND I WANT HER TO GO AWAY. And the worst part is, I know i’m being selfish and crazy and I absolutely hate feeling this way.